EVERY TIME I HAVE SEX WITH MY BOYFRIEND.
I want to slit his throat when he cums.
I feel like being clean is over-rated.
I feel like a zombie without the drugs. I’m suddenly aware of everything I hate in life. My family, my friends, my life, myself. Stupid things annoy the shit out of me and all I can think about is how much I fucked things up. However, when I am fucked up, life is much better. All those things don’t matter anymore and all I do is me. Go through life and changes with swift ease. Everything that once seems like such a big deal becomes so small. I miss the drugs. I miss who they made me. I hate who they’ve made me become.
